Your sweet face fills up my vision
And fear encompasses my heart
Because what if I’m not up to the job
And I let you down from the start?
I’m not sure that I’ve got the right skills
And that very special knack
I’m meandering along without a clue
So much knowledge that I lack.
I worry about my choices
About the decisions that I make
I’m scared that I’ll get things wrong
And make a silly mistake.
I fret when I return to work
That my absence causes distress
Will you be hurt and sad and lost
By having me around you less?
I stress about the care I give
Am I looking after you right?
I stay awake and watch you breathe
Night after tiring night.
Round and round whirl my fears
This is my biggest ever test
But I know the reason for my worry
Is because for you I want the best.
The days, the weeks, the months roll by
And more confident I grow
The feeling starts to creep on me
That there’s so much more that I know.
But the biggest measure of my success
Comes in your beautiful grin
It seems to say ‘Mummy, don’t worry
‘You always had this power within.’